MY LA FAMILIA

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TOWARDS MY LA FAMILIA..LIKE I CAN HONESTLY SAY I LOVE MY LA FAMILIA AND I AM SO HAPPPY THAT I BECAME CLOSE TO ALL OF THEM THIS YEAR BECAUSE IT HAS MADE MY FIRST YEAR OF COLLEGE ALOT EASIER TO DEAL WITH. LIKE THEY ALL HELPED ME THROUGH IT I KNOW I HAVE MY FLAWS AND HAVE DONE SOME WRONG WHEN ITS COME 2 MY LA FAMILIA BUT I REALLY DO TRY 2 MAKE THEM ALL HAPPY. THE BEST THING ABOUT MY LA FAMILIA IS THAT THEY ALL INSPIRE ME....DAMN MY LA FAMILIA IS PRETTY COOL AND I LOVE U ALL

MY BIG CUZZIN MICKEY BEING THE OLDEST IN MY LA FAMILIA GROUP INSPIRES ME THE MOST BY SHOWING ME THAT DREAMS DO COME TRUE WITH A LITTLE HARD WORK. HE WAS ABLE TO MAKE HIS DREAM COME TRUE OF GETTING INTO THE MUSIC WORLD BY BECOMING A THE CEO OF HIS OWN GROUP CALLED SUNNYSIDE MUSIC WHICH IS PRETTY COOL IF U ASK ME...HE IS ALSO DOING HIS OWN PROMOTION THING AND DOING DJING WHICH IS PRETTY COOL...AND YET HE STILL HAS TIME TO HAVE A JOB AND STILL DO HIS HUSTLE AND STILL SKOOLS IT BY GOING TO NEWBURY COLLEGE.. ME AND YOU HAVE HAD OUR UPS AND DOWNS THIS YEAR WHICH WAS A LESSON TO ME AND YET STILL THROUGH THAT I KNO IF AND WEN I NEED YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THERE NO MATTA WAT...HEY WAT CAN I SAY HE IS MY OLDER CUZZIN THAT I LOOK UP TO FOR SO MANY DIFFERENT REASONS THAT I JUST CANT EXPLAIN AND SOME HOW EVEN THO I DONT DESERVE IT SOMETIMES IS ALWAYS THERE 4 ME.CUZZIN I AM SO PROUD OF YOU FOR MAKING EVERYTHING U PUT UR MIND T COME TRUE....DAMN CUZZIN MICKEY I DONT KNO WAT ELSE TO SAY IM JUST HAPPY THAT I CAN CALL YOU MY CUZZIN GET IT CUZZIN I DIG IT AS U LIKE TO SAY BAP BAP BAP ..LOL WATEVA DAT MEANS

MY BIG CUZIN BERTO COMES NEXT HE IS DOING IT BIG BY BEING AT BENTLY COLLEGE AND SKOOLIN IT IN WHICH I AM SO PROUD...ME AND BERTO HAVE NEVA REALLY BEEN THAT CLOSE UNTILL THIS YEAR EVEN THOUGH WE ARE FAMILY AND HAVE BEEN ROUND EACH OTHA FOR A WHILE...I AM SO HAPPY THAT WE BECAME CLOSE THIS YEAR BCUZ NOW I HAVE ANOTHA PERSON TO TURN TO WHEN I AM GOING THRU THINGS AND ANOTHA PERSON THAT INSPIRES ME TO DO GUD...HE IS MY OLDER CUZIN AND I LOVE HIM AND HAPPY WE BECAME CLOSE THIS YEAR.

MY CUZZO JESSE EVEN THOUGH WE ARE CLOSE IN AGE I STILL LOOK UP TO HIM..HEY WAT CAN I SAY IM GLAD WE CLOSE AND THAT WE FAMILY AND THAT EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE OUR UPS AND DOWNS I KNO THAT I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON U FOR ANYTHING NO MATTER WAT...SHYT U PUT UP WIT MY BULLSHYT ALOT I DONT WHY BUT YOU DO AND FOR THAT I AM GRATEFUL...PLUS THE FACT THAT YOU GO TO SKOOL DOWN THE STREET FROM MY SKOOL IS PRETTY GUD 2..I GUESS SINCE I TALK 2 U THE MOST IS THE REASON WHY I HAVE THE LEAST TO SAT BOUT YOU..BUT THANK YOU CUZZO FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME LOVE YA.

MY CUZO JERRY HEY THIS YEAR ME AND HIM HAVE GOT MEGA CLOSE AND IM DEFF DIGGIN THAT WE SHARE THE SAME FRIENDS WHICH IS PRETTY AMAZING..SHYT U BECAME LIKE MY ROOMATE AT SKOOL SINCE YOU WERE ALWAYS HERE..LMAO...I LOVE U CUZO AND NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE DAT SHYT U KEEP ME LAUGHIN AND YET U ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME AND CHECKING UP ON ME AND VISITING ME..SHYT THERES BEEN TIMES WHEN I CALLED YOU FOR FAVORS AND EVERYTIME AS LONG AS YOU COULD DO THEM YOU WOULD THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU ARE SO DEPENDABLE SO TOTALLY LOVE YA..EVEN OUR LIL VIDEO CHATS NOW..LOL

Poem 4 my Fallen Angels

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I trust your judgment
You know what best’s for me
But me getting over it
I just can’t see
Wishing and crying isn’t get me anywhere
I feel as though it’s my fault God didn’t have your life to spare
You are my fallen angels
To the day that I die
And from that point on I’ll follow you to the sky
My fallen angels
Never forget what I’m about to say to you
No matter what everyone think God had a purpose for you
Your in my thoughts
My dreams and everything else I do
Near or far
Far or close
Never forgetting you guys what’s important at most
So just for you I’m not going to live my life in vain
But not because I don’t want to
It’s just I know that you
would want me to do the same as ya’ll did
And that is be
the best I can be and make an impact in peoples lives
In life and after death

Jackie Elysee

Behind These Smiles

So i never been much for words. I am one of those people who rather hide and keep her emotion to herself then really let people whats really going on. Why is this you ask maybe because i have trust issues or maybe its just the way i was raised. Yet for some reason when it comes to expressing myself writing is the easiest way because i feel as though theres just so many words and qoutes and phrases out there to express my feelings. That is also the reason why I love music so much because music is my sanctuary because no matter what im going through i could find a song to express how i am feeling or what i am going through. I have been through so much in life which has shaped me to be the person who i am.I may have many insecurities which no ones knows nor notices but yet i still stand strong. I will let nothing nor no one break me down i may stumble sometimes but i still find the courage to get baq up and find my stabilty.

Sometimes i find myself sayin that behind these smiles a true sadness lies beneath but i wonder who can see..do i smile when im happy or do i just wait for the rollercoaster to fall or am i just the person who rather smile then let the people who surround me see the true pains that i go through

My words are my weapons which no one will ever take from so stand back and come correct or they may cut you deep ...not just for what they stand for but for what they express and really represent but to understand them you must understand me ....