NEVER REGRESS ALWAYS GROW

NEVER REGRESS ALWAYS GROW

A FRIEND ONCE TOLD ME TO NEVER REGRESS ALWAYS GROW. AT FIRST THESE WORDS HAD LITTLE MEANING TO ME I DIDN’T GET WHAT HE MEANT BY THEM. BUT THEN I LEARNED THE TRUE MEANING BEHIND THESE WORDS. I NEVER BEEN ONE TO SHOW EMOTION I JUST PUT ON A SMILE AND KEPT IT GOING AS THOUGH EVERYTHING WAS FINE. THE OLD ME USED TO NOT CARE OR GIVE A FUCK BOUT MOST PEOPLE BCUZ I DIDN’T REALLY THINK CERTAIN INDIVIDUALS WERE OF ANY VALUE TO ME SHYT SOMETIMES I STILL THINK THAT. SHYT BEFORE I USED TO LET WHAT PEOPLE SAY GET TO ME AND WAS EVEN A PUSHOVER AT ONCE, BUT THAN PEOPLE STARTED TO TAKE MY KINDNESS FOR WEAKNESS SO THEN ALL THAT HAD TO CHANGE. ONCE THE CHANGE HAPPENED THERE WAS N TURNING BACK…NEVER REGRESS ALWAYS GROW

I BECAME A PERSON WHO LET CERTAIN INDIVIDUALS IN AND LET THEM MAKE A GREAT IMPACT IN MY LIFE THAT GOES OUT TO ALL THE PEOPLE I CALL MY FRIENDS FROM MY TWO BEST FRIENDS TO MY BC FRIENDS WHO BECAME A PART OF ME TO MY C3 SISTERS TO MY LADIES TO EVEN MY CERTAIN PMC SISTERS AND OF COURSE MY FAM & BIG BRO AND TCS FAMILY OF COURSE MY TATI BABY AND MANY MORE..SHYT THAT MAINLY GOES OT 2 MY LA FAMILIA ALL OF THEM WIT OUT THEM I DON’T KNOW WHERE I WOULD BE…I'M HAPPY I MADE THAT CHANGE NEVER REGRESS ALWAYS GROW

I LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE FULLEST YOU AL HAVE EDUCATED INSPIRED AND MOTIVATED ME AND TAUGHT ME THAT SOMETIMES CHANGE CAN BE GUD JUST LEARN FROM CHANGE A KEEP PUSHING FORWARD TOWARDS IT AND NEVER TURN BACK HENCE WHY I LOVE THIS QUOTE GIVIN TO ME BY A GUD FRIEND OF MINE NEVER REGRESS ALWAYS GROW…THANKS ARTERY FOR THOSE WORDS …THANK U EVERYONE FOR MAKING THEM MEANINGFUL

POETIC MUSICIAN

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SOMETIMES PEOPLE PUT UP WALLS,

NOT TO KEEP PEOPLE AWAY BUT TO SEE WHO CARES ENOUGH TO BREAK THEM

DOWN...

DAMN AM I TRYING BUT DEZ WALLS SEEM

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SOMETIMES I SEE THESE WALLS AND THEY STAND 10FT TALL
THEY STAND SO TALL THAT I DON’T KNOW IF WORTHY ENUFF TO BREAK DEM
I FEEL LIKE IF I STICK ROUND LONG ENOUGH THAT MAYBE DEY WILL GET LOWER
DAMN AM I TRYIN BUT DAMN DEZ WALLS SEEM
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SOMETIMES I THINK DAT MY WALLS ARE JUST AS TALL AS YOURS JUST GAURDED
GAURDED FROM THE EMOTION THE PAIN THE HURT AND MAYBE DA BEST HEART
HEART DAT BEATS SO STRONG THAT YOU KNO A TRU PAIN FLOWS THRU IT JUST AS BLOOD FLOWS THRU MY VEINS
DAMN AM I TRYIN BUT DAMN DEZ WALLS SEEM
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SOMETIMES I HAVE TO REALIZE DAT THES WALLS I SPEAK OF ARE MINE
WALLS DAT I BUILT TO KEEP ME FROM HAVIN MY PERFECT REALITY
WALLS DAT PUSH PEOPLE AWAY BCUZ DEY FEEL THEY CAN NEVER GET THRU
DAMN AM I TRYIN BUT DAMN DEZ WALLS SEEM
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SOMETIMES I JUST LISTEN FOR THAT SOUND
THAT SOUND OF THE WALS BREAKING DOWN
LISTEN CLOSELY DO U HEAR DAT
BOOM CRASH DEY GOES MY WALLS
ONLY TO REALIZE DAT ONCE MY WALLS BEEN BROKEN
FOUR MORE GO UP BCUZ MY HEARTS BEEN HURT SO MUCH DAT DEY REBUILD AUTOMATICALLY KEEPIN FRIENDS FAMILY ND PEOPLE WHO CARE OUT DER KNOCKIN
ONLY THE TRU ONES HAVE GOTTEN THRU AND NOW STAND ON THE OTHER SIDE

SOMETIMES PEOPLE PUT UP WALLS,
NOT TO KEEP PEOPLE AWAY BUT TO SEE WHO CARES ENOUGH TO BREAK THEM DOWN...
DAMN AM I TRYING BUT DEZ WALLS SEEM
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I LOVE MY LA FAMILIA C3 SISTERS ND MY PMC LADIES ASHLEE & MEKAH ND MY MUSIC BUILDING FAMILY AND THOSE I CALL FRIENDS FROM MY HEART TO MY TATI BABY & JOANNE BARBOSA DATS WHY THEY STAND ON THE OTHERSIDE HELPIN ME SUPPORT THOSE WALLS AGAINST THE BAD PEOPLE TRYIN TO BREAK THEM DOWN....HINT DERS A REASON I CHOSE DA COLOR ORANGE(INSIDA)

BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES

BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES

BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES LIES A BEAUTY
A BEAUTY THAT NO WORDS CAN EXPRESS NOR DEFINE
A BEAUTY THAT ONLY THE DEEEPEST OF SOULS CAN SEE
A BEAUTY THAT IS SELF EXPLANATORY
A BEAUTY THAT HAS NO NAME NO SHAPE SOUND JUST BEAUTY
BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES

BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES LIES A SONG
LIES A SONG THAT ONLY THE HEART CAN SING
LIES A SONG THAT IS SINFULLY SWEET
LIES A SONG THAT SINGS PEOPLE SAY I WOULDN’T MAKE IT DAT ILL NEVER REACH TO DA TOP
LIES A SONG DAT ECHOS THST ALL THE THYINGS THAT I BEEN THRU R DA REASONS Y IM STANDING HERE MOST POWERFUL BEATIN HEART DAT WILL NEVER STOP
BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES

BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES LIES A SPIRIT
A SPIRIT THAT CAN NEVER BE BROKEN
A SPIRIT THAT U MAY CALL SENSITIVE
A SPIRIT THAT SPEAKS THE TRUTH
A SPIRIT IN WHICH MOST CASES IS SIMPLY UNDEFINED
BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES

BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES LIES A SADNESS
A SADNESS THAT NO ONE CAN SEE NOR UNDERSTAND
A SADNESS THAT HAS BUILT UP ITS ON WALLS TO KEEP OUT DA BAD
A SADNESS THAT CRIES SILENT TEARS WHICH NO ONE WILL EVER SEE OR UNDERSTAND BCUZ U HAVE 2 B ME TO SHED DEZ TEARS
A SADNESS DAT I WUDT WISH ON MY WORST ENEMY
BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES

BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES

BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES

BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES SANDS A STRONG BLACK EDUCATED WOMEN THAT KNOWS LIFE IS PAINFULLY BEAUTIFUL
JUST AS A ROSE WITH THONES IN ITS STEMS THAT EVEN THO ITS HURTS U CANT HELP BUT HOLD ON TO IT
A ROSE DAT ULL NEVER LET GO BECAUSE ITS DAT DAMN BEAUTIFUL
SO HOW U LIKE WAT STANDS BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES
BECAUSE RITE BOUT NOW IM LOVIN HER & MY LIFE CUZ ITS GOLDEN
BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES
BEHIND THESE BROWN EYES

LIFE IS PAINFULLY BEAUTIFUL

LIFE SOMETIMES GIVES ME THINGS I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE SO IT ONLY MAKES ME THINK WHY MUST MY LIFE BE SO PAINFUL...SOMETIMES I'M JUST FIGHTING TO STAY SANE IN THIS LIFE OF MINE....ON THE OTHER HAND SOME TIMES LIFE JUST TO BE SO AMAZING LIKE TO THE POINT THAT I JUST THINK ITS JUST A SWEET DREAM.. BUT ITS JUST A DREAM I DON'T WANNA WAKE UP FROM... I WAS ONCE TOLD BY SOMEONE THAT "NEVER REGRESS ALWAYS GROW" AND SOMETIMES THAT'S JUST EASIER SAID THEN DONE....

THEN THERE ARE THOSE DAYS WHEN I REALIZE HOW LUCKY I AM FOR THE PEOPLE I HAVE MEET AND WERE BLESSED TO BECOME FRIENDS WITH AND MOST IMPORTANTLY TO BE BLESSED WITH MY LA FAMILIA WHICH TIME AFTA TIME PROVE TO BE MY ROCK ND MY BAQ BONE GETTIN ME THRU THE ROUGHEST MOMENTS IN MY LYFE MY LA FAMILIA IS MY EVERYTHING WITOUT THEM WHO KNOWS WHERE I WUD BE.....

THIS IS WHY I SAY LIFE IS DEFINITELY PAINFULLY BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE NO MATTER HOW BAD LIFE GETS IT ALWAYS GETS BETTER AND I LEARNED THAT AND CONTINUE TO LEARN THAT DAILY...SO TO ALL MY FRIENDS INCLUDING DA FRIENDS I HAD FOR YEARS AND TO THE ONES I MEET IN COLLEGE FROM MY C3 SISTERS THAT I HOPE WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF MY LIFE... I LOVE MY NEW LADIES OF PMC BECAUSE WE HAVE SHARED SOME GUD EXPERIENCES FROM THE LATE NIGHT HEART TO HEART WALKS AROUND CAMPUS TO JUST THE LATE NITE TALKS ND DINNERS 2 CALIFORNIA SUNS PIZZA.....AND EVEN TO THE FRIENDS IVE MADE THIS PAST SUMMER MY HEART BECAME A REALLY GREAT FRIEND TO ME EVEN MY LONG TIMES FRIENDS LIL SISTER TATI BABY BECAME A PART OF ME AND I HEART THEM BOTH I MEET SOME OF THE MOST AMAZING YOUTH THIS SUMMER WHICH I KNO WILL DO GREAT THINGS IN THIS WORLD ..I CUD EVEN SAY DAT THE PERSON WHO BECAME MY ARTERY HAS TAUGHT ME MANY THINGS FOR THE SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME OF KNOWING EACH OTHER NEVER REGRESS ALWAYS GROW SOME OF THE WISET WORDS...WORKIN WIT MY BIG SISTER DIZ SUMMA WAS SUCH AN EXPERIENCE THAT I WUD NEVER TRADE UP FOR THE WORLD....


LIFE IS PAINFULLY BEAUTIFUL AND RITE NOW LIFE IS JUST AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL LIVING MY LYFE LIKE ITS GOLDEN YA DIG ..I LOVE MY LA FAMILIA

WHERE WORDS FAIL MUSIC SPEAKS

MUSIC IS HEALING AND IT CAN DESCRIBE YOUR LIFE IN EVERY MOMENT WHEN ALL US FAILS LET MUSIC SPEAK FOR YOU IT CAN EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS WITH OUT YOU EVER HAVING TO SAY ANYTHING...IT CAN EXPRESS YOUR ANGER HAPPINESS LOVE..SHYT JUST IN GENERAL MUSIC IS LOVE AND IT IS MY SANCTUARY IT MAKES ME FEEL CALM COOL AND COLLECTIVE NO MATTER WHAT I'M GOING THRU IN MY LIFE..I NEVER BEEN ONE FOR CONVERSATION AND HAVING THE ARTISTIC SKILL OF MUSIC HELPS..I ONCE HEARD THIS QUOTE THAT "MUSICALITY CAN BE WHATEVER YOU WANT IT TO BE BECAUSE YOU CAN MANIPULATE THE BEAT" ~LITTLE C...THIS EXPLAINS LIFE IN ITSELF AS WELL BECAUSE YOUR LIFE CAN BE WHATEVER YOU WANT IT TO BE ITS ALL ON HOW YOU MAKE IT..JUST RANDOM THOUGHTS FOR THE NIGHT LIFE IS BEAUTIFULLY PAINFUL

POETIC MUSICIAN

MY LA FAMILIA

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TOWARDS MY LA FAMILIA..LIKE I CAN HONESTLY SAY I LOVE MY LA FAMILIA AND I AM SO HAPPPY THAT I BECAME CLOSE TO ALL OF THEM THIS YEAR BECAUSE IT HAS MADE MY FIRST YEAR OF COLLEGE ALOT EASIER TO DEAL WITH. LIKE THEY ALL HELPED ME THROUGH IT I KNOW I HAVE MY FLAWS AND HAVE DONE SOME WRONG WHEN ITS COME 2 MY LA FAMILIA BUT I REALLY DO TRY 2 MAKE THEM ALL HAPPY. THE BEST THING ABOUT MY LA FAMILIA IS THAT THEY ALL INSPIRE ME....DAMN MY LA FAMILIA IS PRETTY COOL AND I LOVE U ALL

MY BIG CUZZIN MICKEY BEING THE OLDEST IN MY LA FAMILIA GROUP INSPIRES ME THE MOST BY SHOWING ME THAT DREAMS DO COME TRUE WITH A LITTLE HARD WORK. HE WAS ABLE TO MAKE HIS DREAM COME TRUE OF GETTING INTO THE MUSIC WORLD BY BECOMING A THE CEO OF HIS OWN GROUP CALLED SUNNYSIDE MUSIC WHICH IS PRETTY COOL IF U ASK ME...HE IS ALSO DOING HIS OWN PROMOTION THING AND DOING DJING WHICH IS PRETTY COOL...AND YET HE STILL HAS TIME TO HAVE A JOB AND STILL DO HIS HUSTLE AND STILL SKOOLS IT BY GOING TO NEWBURY COLLEGE.. ME AND YOU HAVE HAD OUR UPS AND DOWNS THIS YEAR WHICH WAS A LESSON TO ME AND YET STILL THROUGH THAT I KNO IF AND WEN I NEED YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THERE NO MATTA WAT...HEY WAT CAN I SAY HE IS MY OLDER CUZZIN THAT I LOOK UP TO FOR SO MANY DIFFERENT REASONS THAT I JUST CANT EXPLAIN AND SOME HOW EVEN THO I DONT DESERVE IT SOMETIMES IS ALWAYS THERE 4 ME.CUZZIN I AM SO PROUD OF YOU FOR MAKING EVERYTHING U PUT UR MIND T COME TRUE....DAMN CUZZIN MICKEY I DONT KNO WAT ELSE TO SAY IM JUST HAPPY THAT I CAN CALL YOU MY CUZZIN GET IT CUZZIN I DIG IT AS U LIKE TO SAY BAP BAP BAP ..LOL WATEVA DAT MEANS

MY BIG CUZIN BERTO COMES NEXT HE IS DOING IT BIG BY BEING AT BENTLY COLLEGE AND SKOOLIN IT IN WHICH I AM SO PROUD...ME AND BERTO HAVE NEVA REALLY BEEN THAT CLOSE UNTILL THIS YEAR EVEN THOUGH WE ARE FAMILY AND HAVE BEEN ROUND EACH OTHA FOR A WHILE...I AM SO HAPPY THAT WE BECAME CLOSE THIS YEAR BCUZ NOW I HAVE ANOTHA PERSON TO TURN TO WHEN I AM GOING THRU THINGS AND ANOTHA PERSON THAT INSPIRES ME TO DO GUD...HE IS MY OLDER CUZIN AND I LOVE HIM AND HAPPY WE BECAME CLOSE THIS YEAR.

MY CUZZO JESSE EVEN THOUGH WE ARE CLOSE IN AGE I STILL LOOK UP TO HIM..HEY WAT CAN I SAY IM GLAD WE CLOSE AND THAT WE FAMILY AND THAT EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE OUR UPS AND DOWNS I KNO THAT I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON U FOR ANYTHING NO MATTER WAT...SHYT U PUT UP WIT MY BULLSHYT ALOT I DONT WHY BUT YOU DO AND FOR THAT I AM GRATEFUL...PLUS THE FACT THAT YOU GO TO SKOOL DOWN THE STREET FROM MY SKOOL IS PRETTY GUD 2..I GUESS SINCE I TALK 2 U THE MOST IS THE REASON WHY I HAVE THE LEAST TO SAT BOUT YOU..BUT THANK YOU CUZZO FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME LOVE YA.

MY CUZO JERRY HEY THIS YEAR ME AND HIM HAVE GOT MEGA CLOSE AND IM DEFF DIGGIN THAT WE SHARE THE SAME FRIENDS WHICH IS PRETTY AMAZING..SHYT U BECAME LIKE MY ROOMATE AT SKOOL SINCE YOU WERE ALWAYS HERE..LMAO...I LOVE U CUZO AND NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE DAT SHYT U KEEP ME LAUGHIN AND YET U ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME AND CHECKING UP ON ME AND VISITING ME..SHYT THERES BEEN TIMES WHEN I CALLED YOU FOR FAVORS AND EVERYTIME AS LONG AS YOU COULD DO THEM YOU WOULD THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU ARE SO DEPENDABLE SO TOTALLY LOVE YA..EVEN OUR LIL VIDEO CHATS NOW..LOL

Poem 4 my Fallen Angels

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I trust your judgment
You know what best’s for me
But me getting over it
I just can’t see
Wishing and crying isn’t get me anywhere
I feel as though it’s my fault God didn’t have your life to spare
You are my fallen angels
To the day that I die
And from that point on I’ll follow you to the sky
My fallen angels
Never forget what I’m about to say to you
No matter what everyone think God had a purpose for you
Your in my thoughts
My dreams and everything else I do
Near or far
Far or close
Never forgetting you guys what’s important at most
So just for you I’m not going to live my life in vain
But not because I don’t want to
It’s just I know that you
would want me to do the same as ya’ll did
And that is be
the best I can be and make an impact in peoples lives
In life and after death

Jackie Elysee

Behind These Smiles

So i never been much for words. I am one of those people who rather hide and keep her emotion to herself then really let people whats really going on. Why is this you ask maybe because i have trust issues or maybe its just the way i was raised. Yet for some reason when it comes to expressing myself writing is the easiest way because i feel as though theres just so many words and qoutes and phrases out there to express my feelings. That is also the reason why I love music so much because music is my sanctuary because no matter what im going through i could find a song to express how i am feeling or what i am going through. I have been through so much in life which has shaped me to be the person who i am.I may have many insecurities which no ones knows nor notices but yet i still stand strong. I will let nothing nor no one break me down i may stumble sometimes but i still find the courage to get baq up and find my stabilty.

Sometimes i find myself sayin that behind these smiles a true sadness lies beneath but i wonder who can see..do i smile when im happy or do i just wait for the rollercoaster to fall or am i just the person who rather smile then let the people who surround me see the true pains that i go through

My words are my weapons which no one will ever take from so stand back and come correct or they may cut you deep ...not just for what they stand for but for what they express and really represent but to understand them you must understand me ....